Fascinating to note that people are starting to WAKE-UP to things I was highly aware of as far back as 2016-17, but often treated with disdain.
I, too, sung the praises of "EDUCATION", which idealistically means a lot to me... however, I find that so-called "education" and knowledge, let alone wisdom, ARE NOT THE SAME. Or, even LEARNING, for that matter. Also this idea that that "getting an education" = "getting a better job"... or, kick the can down the road, and it's "getting an education" = "acquiring employment", let along so-called "gainful employment" is itself a mythology & an urban legend in real time.
I could write essays about how much bull shit this is, not just myself, my own generation, but those younger than myself.
Concepts like "The Law of Diminishing Returns" come to mind.
Before it was the subject of "The ignorant UNEDUCATED MASSES" but NOW it is "The ignorant EDUCATED MASSES".
I'd written a blog post on an older blog, on a different blog, for a different reason, and so on, but HERE is THAT post.
I had quite a LOT to say, tho that blog was rather short. I had quite a lot of ire, resentment, disdain, and full on contempt for THOSE whom out to have done better, and would have us believe that by stating THE OBVIOUS that we were some how STUPID, or too lacking in smarts, brains, vision, or sophistication to comprehend ART as THEY declared it.
THE EMPEROR HAS NO CLOTHES, BITCH!
So, I find THIS lil' tid-bit finding its way to me:
Where were u 10 years ago???
I have so many thoughts, so much experience(s), and of various kinds, broad, detailed, and in depth & volume.
I was quite irked at the very individuals whom claimed to help me, support me, encouraged me, and I followed through, only for them to NOT deliver. Those whom make their livings as literally teachers, and instructors, and use this as a guises as tho THEY KNOW BETTER. UNQUESTIONED.
However, I found out that by the sheer direct experiences myself, with THEM, I KNOW BETTER. And the moment you start to shine, prevail, and overcome difficulties, and unfair odds, they hate u further. They turn on you, if you actually start to grow, learn, surpass, and eclipse things.
And, if you're good at anything, you can be often met with strange reactions from others. Not just envy, or jealousy, greed, parasitic intentions, or a need to control you, or possess you....but, also FEAR! Fear of ALL KINDS! Disgust, wrath, ire, rage, snobbishness, while claiming you are, even if you're very kind, nice, and good to them and others... this is seen as YOU thinking YOU'RE BETTER THAN OTHERS, and looking down on them. People fearing you will take their job.
Then, there's those whom actually do that which they believed, and what they intended to do, or at the very least, it was in their hearts. To teach, encourage, and so on... but, even within the University setting, there's a bias, an echo chamber, and also a kind of group-think culture as well. They can ALSO be out of touch with reality, or the rest of the general populace.
It is TRUE that an ART SCHOOL does not ACTUALLY TEACH anyone how to MAKE ART, nor how to be an artist.
Scams within scams.
Fraud within fraud.
How I wish, at the very least, I could just BELIEVE in education... and yet, these things have motives behind the scenes as well.
Everything often feels like a Kaftka Trap... probably because it is.
But, at the very least, I can say that unlike so many others, I KNOW that I CAN GO THE DISTANCE, that I DID TRY, I did strive, and I did bother.
At some point, you just start to realize it was a either a wasted effort, and to just end it, because you cannot get that energy back, nor that time.... it slips through the fingers.
But, I KNOW what I am capable of.
I UNDERSTAND when things are rigged, unfair, unequal, and I also understand that I have no actual reason to feel shame, nor failure, because I was not wrong. I also care nothing for your petty, stupid judgements, nor your cruelties, because I know I needn't stoop down to your level like you.
In a world of pay-to-win, there are no winners. Because it's fake.
Why should I care what you think of me?
You whom have no concept of even what value even really is.
What should I even care what you think, nor how you feel about me, based on ideas just fed into your mind?
Opinions of lesser minds and hearts.
What I think of YOU, and feel, is my pity. I pity you for your small, narrow minds, and for the cages you placed yourself within.
Why should I care to measure up to your systems of measurement, which is unfair, rigged, and ever changing?
You can take this contempt, and sit on it.
This world could be far better. But, it isn't.
I understand this is not my fault, and I DID try to help it. It's rigged. It's not a bug in the system, it's a feature. THIS is what this world is.
It is intended to be this way.
And, thus... I shall just continue on with my own arts, and wishes, and I care nothing to survive it.
Tear me down! I dare you!
Fear does nothing much to me now. I fear no death.
Yet, you won't.
This reality wishes me to stay stuck alive in it.
For all those whom suffer with fear with a lethal diagnosis, and seethe in fear of death, it does so just to milk you each nano second of ur pain, and fear. But, for me, I'd view such a diagnosis as liberation. Ergo, I have no such diagnosis.
But, each year, it STRIVES to cause me some new medical issue, which is NEVER enough to kill me. NO, just set me back, foil my plans, and make me inert.
and here comes yet another day...
